Neck Pains & Prepping for Christmas…

Unfortunately I have been away from the blog due to health reasons…and work.

I thought I will get on here and let you all in on what has been happening with me since I have been quite quiet lately. I have recently been having neck issues that have been causing a lot of problems especially with my day to day and it has gotten worse the past week.

About 2 weeks ago I was working out with my personal trainer and my left neck muscle was stiffer than usual. I couldnt sleep and so I decided to see a Naprapat for the first time. I am not one for the sound of cracking nor am I comfortable being in pain…who is? Anyway, after my first visit, as you can imagine, I was still in quite a bit of pain. It got better then.. it got worse. So I went back for a second visit and I am still healing from it.

Many of you know I work in a store but not many of you know that I lift quite a bit behind the scenes and during this time of year, that means Christmas. Christmas boxes, Christmas packaging, heavy Christmas decorations for the store… This in combination with my neck problem has been both mentally and physically draining.

I am still not sleeping full nights and I am still in a tad bit of pain when moving or lifting things but I am feeling better and am even taking a weekend away so I hope that things will get back to normal soon. Thats the update. I have a number of posts I am behind on but I will try to write up once I am feeling better.

Ps. The photo was from a few weeks back… ;)
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It took 30 Years…. Happy Birthday To Me!

It’s my 30th Birthday today… And I wanted to share a few memories and a few thoughts on turning “the Big 3-0.”

Back in the Day

and…Yes, I will share a few interesting fashion choices of mini PixiJasmine but heck, they were fun to look at!

As a little kid, I remember my parents planning birthday parties at the local Pizza Hut or Mc Donalds. It was easy since it was a package deal: The cake, the food, the entertainment and games. My parents sent out invitations and kids came with gifts and their parents and it was just a huge family event. When I got a bit older, I was able to have house parties and invite those I wanted to. When I think about birthdays growing up, I appreciate the amount of time and effort that my parents put into making them special..whether it was ordering a special cake to just opening presents with me after my balett practice.

Opening gifts with my mom after Balett…

My Most Memorable Birthday

There are so many memorable birthdays, both good and bad but the most recent memorable birthday was my 28th when my boyfriend had to attend a conference in Las Vegas and I decided to follow him there. I spent a full week, on my own during the day and with him in the evenings. It was during this trip that I was able to learn more about myself. Las Vegas has always and will always have a special place in my heart.

Birthday Blues

Turning 30 makes me think about how much I have grown and all the things I have gone through that many people don’t know about nor seem to care much about. When people talk about Birthday Blues, many talk about being a year older.

Eating Cake with the family after we moved away to Israel and we didnt know anyone…

But for me… When I moved to Sweden the birthdays went uncelebrated and celebrations (Christmas, New Years, etc etc) became quite lonely. I believe that I do correlate my birthday to when I moved to Sweden as it wasn’t a fantastic birthday… nor any birthdays after that. I wasn’t ever able to find a group of people who would want to throw surprise birthdays nor just celebrate with me so birthdays just kind of come and gone.

I guess it has a lot to do with expectations too. I’ve always dreamt of a surprise birthday party, presents, people showing up to sing Happy Birthday and a fantastic cake. I go above and beyond for others and expect mutual respect back but after so many years of not getting it… I have come to the conclusion that most people just happen to have more important things than celebrating me. I learnt to accept that my birthday is just another day with the other 364 days in a year and that it would just have to be up to me to let people know my expectations. And for me, if they can’t come up with it on their own, then maybe I shouldnt care either.

10 Things it Took me 30 Years to…

  1. …Invest in a good pillow. Neck pain & no sleep is not worth it.
  2. …Stop assuming that people will be there for me as I have been for them. Ok. Almost stop assuming. It takes time to learn this one!
  3. …Knowledge is always a good idea.
  4. …Embrace Failure. As a perfectionist, this one was one of the harder ones but by realizing that failure is just another word for ‘try again,’ failure is not all that hard to be ok with!
  5. …Realize that apologizing is better than excuses. We are all human and by apologizing, it is easier to move on and better understand others and learn from mistakes.
  6. …Forgive in my own time. Everyone needs time to accept and move on.
  7. …Find that crying is just as therapeutic as laughing. When you can’t express anger or disappointment, crying is a calming outlet and is OK!
  8. …Realize that SPF is a MUST. The one and only thing that would keep me looking fresh no matter what age!
  9. …Find that what you have dreamt of will not always come true. Instead of focusing on what has not been realized, I need to refocus on something that is more attainable.
  10. Be myself. Someday I will find the right people who would love me for it.
Happy Birthday to ME.
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Lost Track… Sorry!

For those who aren’t interested in me and personal posts, the only thing you need to read is:  I’ll be back with more beauty related posts soon. For the rest of you, Well hello. I’ve been feeling quite lost lately. So motivation to write in the blog… 0%. I’m sorry. This is why.

Blog.
I have so many amazing things to show but since I have been focusing everything that I have…time, energy, focus…everything…in my new job, I feel overwhelmed with the change that even though I have taken photos, I just haven’t had the feels to write what I think about them or any inspiration of using beauty products. (Of course, with exception for the amazing Moschino fragrance I had to blog about directly!) I have been changing up my skincare and gotten a number of new polishes to play with but again. Once I’m feeling better I will get around to showing you all some new stuff.

Work.
I think I may be a little off also because of work. My work-partner in crime is about to have a baby, leaving me to take the reigns at work and I am not feeling as confident in creating the relationships that are needed for this roll… Relationships I haven’t had time to build in order to do my job. Don’t get me wrong. I love my job. I like my coworkers/bosses and I know I could do a good job…But with anyone I meet, I invest so much of my time and energy building up a foundation which takes time. Time I apparently do not have for this next deadline.

Physical.
My sleep rhythm is totally off or rather not even existing at the moment and I have started grinding my teeth which means that I have increased my stress level after fighting to keep it down. I’m worried that I may be slipping back into that me I was a few months back. I haven’t 100% separated my work from my private/personal time which I believe is taking a toll. As any new employee, I want to be able to prove that I can and that I am the right person for the job. But am I?

I have started eating better, drinking more water (which is huge for those of you who know me!) and also bringing in Yoga in my morning routine just to make sure I am keeping my body balance. Hopefully it will help me get back to my regular routine.

For those of you who read through this, thanks for “listening.” I’ll be back, Just need some time!

/Så. Jag ber om ursäkt att bloggen har varit lite tyst. Är ni bara här för skönhet så jag återkommer med skönhetsinlägg snart men för er som vill veta mer om vad händer.

Blogg: Jag har mycket att visa men tyvärr ingen motivation då jag lägger ALLT jag har i nya jobbet som tar mycket på mig. Jag har började med en ny hudvårdsrutin bl.a men bara ingen motivation för tillfället och jag ber om ursäkt.

Jobb: Jag tror jag kan vara lite off pga jobbet. Kanske pga min partner in crime ska föda snart och lämnar mig med något jag känner inte att jag har fullt kontroll över. Mycket av mitt jobb handlar om förhållanden och med alla jag träffar så spenderar jag verkligen allt jag har för att skapa en perfekt bas till den som gör att jag blir oerhört stressad för att det tar tid jag inte har.

Fysisk: Jag sover riktigt dåligt och började gnisslar på tänderna. Min stress nivå är farligt högt och jag är lite orolig att jag kommer gå tillbaka till hur jag var för några månader sen. Jag har inte lyckats separera jobb och privat än som jag tror är det som gör det lite svårt att komma tillbaka. Som ny på ett jobb så vill man prestera och visa att jag är den perfekta till detta jobb…men är jag det? Jag börjar äta nyttigare, dricker mer vatten (och ni som känner mig vet hur stort just det är!) och även började med Yoga på morgonen bara för att balansera min kropp och förhoppningsvis det hjälper mig komma tillbaka till rutin.

Lovar jag kommer tillbaka. Behöver bara lite tid!

 

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